One of the things I started doing before Revolution started was meeting with a spiritual director. As a pastor and communicator, a big part of my job is helping others with their spiritual journey, answering questions, giving guidance and helping people see where God is working in their lives. I love this about my job. The problem I ran into was I needed someone to help me with that.
Last week, during my monthly session, I was sharing about the weight of pastoring. It is hard to describe the weight a pastor carries. While all jobs have weights, for me I feel the financial, spiritual, relational, emotional weight, as well as the calling that is on my life for this job.
As I was describing this and all the things God has done in the last few months at Revolution (which have been amazing and God has done some unbelievable things at our church) she asked me, “How do you handle success?”
It stopped me in my tracks.
She went on, “Do you ever just sit and bathe in what God is doing, what God has done? Or, are you so focused on the next thing, looking for the next problem that you miss what God is doing?”
As a church planter, it is bred in us to be a fighter. It takes a fighter to make it, church planting is not for the faint of heart. You also don’t want to have the idea that you have arrived or made it as a church. You don’t want to be prideful or think God is moving because of you.
I left thinking, “Am I allowed to enjoy what God is doing?”
The answer is yes. A resounding yes.
So, now I’m celebrating more. I’m bathing in what God is doing. I’m trying to be more present to enjoy what God is doing around me, in me and through me.
So, leaders. Do you enjoy success? Do you enjoy when God moves and he uses you, or, are you off to the next thing, looking for the next fire to put out, the next problem to solve?
I am enjoying God moving and using me. I am enjoying God’s success.