It’s hard to be the person you’re supposed to be.
If we’re honest, the person we are, the person God is creating in us often seems mundane and ordinary. Nothing like the highlight reels we see on Instagram.
As a pastor, it is tough to be the person God has created you to be.
You can download the sermons of any other pastor (and so can your people). You wonder if you are measuring up; if you are faithful enough if you are pursuing the vision God has placed in your heart or pursuing someone else’s vision.
Compound that with voices in your church. Many of them well-meaning.
You will hear things like:
- You need to be more visionary.
- You need to be more shepherding.
- You need to preach more in-depth (deeper) sermons.
- You need to preach more topical sermons that are relevant.
- You need to be more relational.
- You need to be more strategic.
- Have you ever heard of ________ [insert famous pastor]?
- My last pastor did ____________.
And that is before you hear anything about your spouse, your kids or the direction of the church.
With all of those voices (don’t forget your taunting doubts), it is hard to be the pastor God has called and created you to be.
It took me a long time (and I’m still wrestling through it) to be comfortable with who I am.
Yes, I need to grow in my shortcomings. I need the gospel to plow through the pride in my heart.
But my church needs me to bring the gifts, talents, and strengths that God has given to me. Not the gifts, talents and strengths of the pastor down the road or the latest megachurch pastor flying up the iTunes chart.
That’s a hard lesson to learn and one that I wished I would’ve learned earlier.
If you don’t, you will end up chasing after people, trying to please loud people who don’t care who God has created you to be, only that you aren’t what they would like you to be.
So, be you.
God doesn’t need you to be the person down the street. He already has that one.
He needs and wants you.
That’s why He made you the way He did.